A non-stop-tear-producing movie. T_T
I watched this movie called "The Miracles in Cell No. 7" last week and I still can’t get over it so I had to post this so you could, if you want to, share the same feeling I’ve had from watching this.
I won’t tell any plot but I’ll just assure you, you’ll 100% cry or if not, then maybe you watched it without subtitle, lol. But seriously, even without those, I’ll still cry, huhu. Such a cry baby. And actually up to now, I’m even afraid to play the trailer because I know it would bring back the memories of the whole movie and I’ll just start crying all over again -_-
And to tell you, I didn’t just “tears-fell”-cried during the movie but “tears-fell-plus-moaning” cried that I hardly stopped. It was so so so embarrassing, having that I was with my sister and we’re both focus and quiet and out of the blue, I was crying louder than the actors of the movie, itself. Haha, just sharing. So guys, watch it. But just make sure, you drink lots of water before. You might get a little dehydrated after. =) A friendly reminder from a friendly friend. k
I won’t watch it again eveeeerrr!
You sure would say the same after cause you just don’t want to cry that much ever again. Huhu
PS: I first saw this movie from exo showtime, so thanks EXO, I cried a river.
February 17, 2014. Kanina lang to nangyari and still, hindi ko mapaliwanag ang nararamdaman ko. Berry just got scratched by a motorcycle. As I heard the scratch, I knew exactly what happened but no emotions went up. I quickly got off from Berry tas kinausap ko yung lalaking nagdadrive nung motor. I was trying to get mad. Feeling ko napaka-overacting ko nun. Kasi wala talagang emosyon na lumalabas sakin. Medyo, sagu-sagutan pa kami tas nagkuhaan ng number para naman matawagan siya ng papa ko kung sakali. And I went off. Tas after ilang minutes, dun ko lang napagtanto kung ano talagang nangyari. Berry got scratched for pete’s sake! From there, tears began falling. And I just cried and cried as loud as I could make while I was driving. Nagfa-flashback paulit-ulit sakin yung tunog at yung mismong eksena ng pangyayari. Hindi ko nga alam pano ako mabubuhay ngayong araw. Mahina kasi ako sa pagdedesisyon kapag napepressure ako. For a moment, I blamed Him. Hindi ko alam kung anong pumasok sa kokote ko at nasisi ko Siya. Good thing I quickly realized what I was ridiculously doing, nagsorry ako agad and also to my dad and mom and ofcourse, to Berry. Paulit-ulit ako sa pagsorry. Mas bumigat kasi yung pakiramdam ko nung sinisi ko Siya.
Pagpasok ko sa school, wala pang prof. It eased me a little pero naging todo emotera pa rin ako. Hindi ko mapigilang maalala yung mismong pangyayari pati yung luha ko sa pagtulo. More of, I was traumatized. Inisip ko nga na hindi na muna siguro magda-drive ulit. For 1 week, magcocommute na muna ako. Pero ngayon, naisip ko na kaya ko naman. Important is I learned my lesson. I decided to just go home para mapakalma at mapayapa ang sarili ko.
And here I am, writing this kasi mejo nakalma na nga ako. I already told my dad and lucky me, he didnt get mad.
I remembered I imagined myself encountering what I encountered earlier. Ang akala ko makikipagbasag-ulo ako. But good thing, I did not. Saka imposible rin pala. Joke, depende sa kung sino makakasalamuha mo pala. Mejo mabait saka nakakaawa kasi yung kuyang nakagasgasang-palad ko. lol. I’m okay na pala, kailangan lang ng konting kapayapaan pa para makaget-over na talaga ng bongga.
August 24, 2013 and February 17, 2014 - shitty days
Last Tuesday evening, naganap ang historical apology ko. Haha! At nangyari ang lahat ng yan sa sobrang kaadikan ko sa kpop. Damn lovely kpop. Anyways, ako saka yung bunso namin, full attention sa panunuod ng kpop nang umuwi yung papa ko. He was really in a good mood and earlier that evening, pinag-grocery niya pa kami na we should be grateful of naman talaga since busyng-busyng na siya these days. Tapos he started asking how was our day. Nung una nakakasagot pa ako ng matino pero dahil sunud-sunod yung tanong niya, or sakin lang yun dahil ayaw ko na lang talaga siya magtanong, may yamot na sa tono ko tuwing sasagot ako. Tas bandang huli sabi niya na lang, “Ba’t galit ka?” Hindi na ako sumagot, I just frowned. My sister replied “kasi nanunuod po siya e.” for me. Then he just said “Ganito na siguro talaga pag matanda na.” Hindi naman ako natinag thinking nagbibiro lang naman siya since lagi naman niyang nababanggit yun pag inaasar-asar namin siya. So yun, I continued what I was doing without knowing the fire was still burning. After nun, dahil mejo malakas ang pandama ko sa bagay-bagay, naramdaman ko ng tahimik na yung papa ko. I knew then there’s something wrong. Pero hindi naman kasi ako sure dun kaya hindi ko na lang pinansin. Fast forward. The usual, naghilamos na ako since matutulog na then pumasok na ako sa kuwarto. While I was putting on lotion (taray), nakarinig ako ng hikbi. Siyempre, alam ko na agad kung san nanggaling yun. From there, I felt burdened. Alam kong hindi ako makakatulog ng ganun. Kanina pa naman, pinaplano ko na lang na matulog na lang tuloy-tuloy, kunyari walang nangyari, saka hindi ko pa naman masiyadong dama kanina since hindi pa ako sure. Dinahan-dahan ko na lang yung pag-lotion para makapag-isip man lang kung ano ba dapat kong gawin. In the end, without hesitation, tinabihan ko siya and I cried along apologizing. I kept repeating “sorry na po” I didn’t know how I did that thinking of my pride. Hinding-hindi ko kayang mag-sorry sa kahit kaninong tao ng ganun kadali pero pala pag mahalagang tao talaga ang nasaktan mo, nag-ootomatik na yung katawan mo sa paglapit sa kanila kasi ayaw mo silang mawala sayo though the situation is far from losing. Ewan ko ba kung bakit pinanganak akong mataas ang pride pagdating sa paghingi ng tawad. Buti na lang hindi hanggang sa tawaran sa bibilhin (kruuu). Basta takot ako at nahihiyang manghingi ng sorry parati. Para kasing “pano pa pag hindi naman tinanggap? sayang lang?” ang epek sakin lagi. Hindi ko nga mabanggit ng matino ang sorry except for these one with my paps na sobrang sincere ako. Kahit sa prof/teacher nga, may hesitant pa rin yung paghingi ko ng sorry e. :(
To top these all, pinatawad niya ako :) Dahil mabait akong bata. At ito ang dahilan ng namumugto kong mata kinabukasan.
We had this acting workshop last thurs na supposed to be hindi naman kami kasama since dakilang SM lang ako. But then it happened na kasama kaming lahat. That particular workshop is called “Accept and Give” ata as I remember. You just have to copy the sound a person made when looking directly at you and then make your own sound to pass to another. More or less ganun yun. At the first parts, I kept on thinking of what sound to make but there was this time that it came back to me so fast and the only thing that I had in mind is the “P.I.” curse with “mo rin” at the end. As in sigaw talaga, enough for the pips in the room to hear. It just happened na bago ko masabi yun, yung kaharap ko nasabi yung “P.I” din so parang nagpa-flashback-flashback pa rin yun sa utak ko kaya ayun nasabi ko rin in return :( I felt so so so bagabag that time. Hindi na raw virgin bibig ko :( True enough, although may mga times na sa sobrang inis ko sa buhay, nasasabi ko nalang bigla yung P. But in the end, nawala na rin yung bagabag ng buhay ko as I heard everyone cursing wilder than I did. Wooo, hindi lang ako ang nagkasala sa araw na iyon.
And another was the pabilisan sa paggapang epek. I was second to the last sa line and kakatapos ko lang gumapang nang biglang tawagin ulit ako to compete sa last nung kalaban namin. How haggard was that -_- From there, nasugat ako ng hindi ko namamalayan at kung hindi ko pa masasabon habang naliligo, hindi ko pa malalaman. Anyhow, we won so no hard feelings.
That day was just so so so tiring! Hanggang ngayon masakit katawan namin. Ano ba dapat kunin kong trabaho sa prod nang hindi na masama sa mga workshops na yan. Utang na loob naman, san namin maiaapply yang winorkshop samin bilang SM? Joke, no hard feelings nga e.
Ang number na wala akong kaagaw, charaaaat! I love you 12.
Here’s to the brokenhearted girl. </3 charaaaat! Hindi ko na kasi talaga kinekeri ang bigat at init na dinadala (Kahit ang lamig-lamig ngayon) ng beautiful hair ko. Achievement teeey, the shortest hair Ive ever had since Grade 2. Taraaay. Please don’t mind yung pagka-ex convict ng ibang pictures.
At no relate at all, sa araw rin na ito, na-upgrade ko na sa wakas ang di-uling kong laptop. From Starter to Home Premium, taruuush! From 2010 Starter to Microsoft Office 2010! Wooo! Mahal na kita MIA! <3 Pero may exam pa rin bukas :(
Happy Birthday to the girl I idolize and admire the most in Kpop. You’re the B-E-S-T STAR! IKAW NA, IKAW NA REYNA! #HyolynDay #Happy23rdKimHyoJung
Ang taray ng title. But it’s so true! From Friday to Monday, nagpaulan Siya ng happiness sakin :) Huwwwweeeeelll.
Let’s start from Friday.
From school, me and my bro headed to Pampanga, sa province namin for a short vacay. Kasi he’s been experiencing anxiety over rapid changes in his life. Ayun, so he needs to chill and he needs us to be with him. Actually last week rin nandun kami, but it was just the same as our other visits sa pampanga, normal boring and kinda fun. This weekend was just so extraordinary. We appreciated each other’s existence more. You know the feeling? Yung normally, pag nagkikita kayo sa bahay, parang “uy nandito ka na pala” epek lang pero dahil nga sa short vacay, naging better chuchu yung samahan namin.
Nung nakarating na kami sa pamp, hinatid naman namin si Ka Maki sa sakayan ng bus na mejo malayo na sa bahay namin dun. Kaya mejo naging joy ride yung peg namin. To represent the layo, think of makati and quezon. Basta parang ganun ka-exagge. haha! Ayun ang saya lang. Ang sarap i-cherish ng view especially, christmas lights were out in the streets that time. Tapos dun na rin namin pinlan yung mga gagawin namin tom. Basta it was so fun.
I woke up late coz I slept late. Malamang. Habang nagbe-breakfast na supposed to be lunch kasi 11:30 na rin nun, napagdesisyunan naming puntahan yung poultry nung papa ko. It’s not my first time pero first time ng kuya ko kaya mejo tour tour epek kami dun. The way there is kinda narrow with all the lubak epek kaya I don’t even know kung pano ko napagkasya si Berry dun. Habang nagmomoment kami sa sarap ng hangin dun, napagdesisyonan naming kami yung mangunguha ng itlog tom morning. It’s kind of an obligation kasi we need to wake up really early for that. Mejo may occasional katamaran pa naman ako kapag Sunday :( Ewan ah, pero everything feels special. Kasi lagi naman kami napunta dun pero iba yung feeling nung nagpunta uli kami e. It must be special becoz finally I’m with kuya and the air and freshness added up. Ang sarap sa feeling! It’s like I’ve been so busy with school and kpop stuffs that I unintentionally neglected my family, esp my kuya and mama. Kaya nung nakakasama ko na ulit sila with all the bonding, parang nawala yung tinik. Ang taray. Haha!
Tapos nagroadtrip ulit kami papunta sa bahay naman ng girlfriend ng pinsan ko nung hapon. And then the night came, um-order kami sa J.Co ng chuchus. Ya know what? First time kong makakatikim ng J.Co kasi wala talaga akong tiyaga sa pagpila, e wala rin namang nagmamabuting loob na magbigay sakin kaya ayun, inosente ang dila ko sa JCo. Grabe 1 hour bago namin nakuha order namin kahit sa priority line na kami pumila. Pagkatapos makuha yung order, traffic na pala sa labas coz that day was Holiday. 1 hour kaming nakaupo sa sasakyan kahit hindi naman kalayuan yung restaurant na kakainan namin. Imagine this, inikot namin yung SM for 1 hour. That’s true. Prams. Nakakaloka lang. Pero worth it naman ang lahat. Ang daming food. Sa City Grill. In-indorse ko sa inyo. Masarap po grabees. Parang may birthday lang sa dami yung inorder. It was my kuya’s (pinsan) treat nameern. Iba na talaga pag sumusuweldo!!! Nakakatuwa tingnan yung lola ko. Ang saya niyang kumain. Pangarap ko rin pakainin siya one day. Ayoko na rin kasing nagtatrabaho siya sa bahay. Nagluluto, nagliligpit para samin. Pero makulit yun e. Ayaw paawat magtrabaho. Basta we ended the night happily and so so so so busog. Yehey!
This is the egg day. Ewan ko anong sumaping espirito sakin kung bakit sinipag talaga akong bumangon. As in lahat kami with my younger sister na rin. Ang lamig sa labas. Ramdam na ramdam ko na ang pag-december. Mga bangag pa kami habang nakasakay sa tricycle on our way sa poultry. Tas nanguha kami ng itlog with all the picture taking. Ako pa ba? Instragramer ata to. Mejo maiitim lang kami sa kuha kasi it was still dawn. Grabe, about 2300 na eggs yung pinulot namin. Mainit-init pa nga e. Sa unang pasok sa poultry, sobrang baho talaga pero ma-iimmune ka after some time pero yung sting, nag-i-stay siya. Gumuguhit sa ilong. Still, nag-enjoy pa rin kami. Nakakatuwang isipin na nakakabuo sila ng itlog in a 24-hour time. For me, it’s like pupu with all the init and baho epek pa. haha. Inabot na kami ng sunrise sa pamumulot. Pagkatapos, nagbalikan na ulit kami sa pagtulog. Itutuloy ko yung panaginip ko, sayang e.
Tapos we woke up ulit at 8am para magready sa church service. This is special since ako yung nagdrive and I’m with my siblings and we’re in Pampanga. So parang adventure yun since we’re not really familiar with the places. Nakarating naman kami on time. And we felt blessed and all after that.
Nagsitulugan ulit kami after kasi mejo nahectic yung sked namin for an early morning. Nagising kami around 4pm and we decided to go to the park. It’s a usual park. May seesaw, swing, slide, fountain. Pero it’s not marumi kaya bongga, unlike ng mga park sa manila -_- Ako po ulit nagdrive. This time, I’m with my 3 cousins and my siblings. Naghabulan kami dun tas nagseesaw, nagslide, nagswing, nagpicture taking rin kaya lang nasa phone pa, tinatamad na akong i-upload. Tapos roadtrip ulit. This is the most exciting part kasi habang bumabiyahe, nagtatawag kami ng pogi/ganda. Tapos sasabayan ng “Ay hindi pala” Ang epic lang ng mga itsura ng mga tinatawag namin. Haha! Feelingeraas. Tapos humirit pa ulit kami ng isang roadtrip kinagabihan. Kami naghatid sa pinsan namin sa bahay nila then we did that “pogi/ganda” all over again.
Nakakatuwang marinig sa mga pinsan ko yung “Ang saya ngayon, sana ganito ulit next week.” Sana nga… :)
And we went back to Manila that night.
Walang pasok pero pumasok ako. Kasi may attendance chorva. Ang kinasasaya lang ng kaluluwa ko sa araw na ito ay ang pagda-drive ko ng mag-isa. Wag kayo, EDSA lang naman ang binabanatan ko. Hanep ng term ko. Nakakatuwa rin na hinatid ko sa skul yung kapatid ko. I’m a ganap na ate na!!! HAHAHA! It’s Berry’s first time sa SM North parking chorva din. Super proud ako sa pag-cocombat parking dun. Huwell! I’m so awesome. Normal chitchats with my college friends added up to my happiness today din. Actually mga half nga sila e.
And that’s my consecutive days of happiness as of now. Bow. Bukas sana ulit para maging DEN na to. Haha
Wala akong mai-title, hence, hindi naman ako masyadong overly joyed para mag-blog pa bout this but this sipag of mine can’t just sleep without this being blogged.
so eto na nga. We finally had our studio tour!!! But I hate tours. The only thing I want about this is the fact that there’s a chance to meet celebs. Yey, everyone was excited. I woke up really early kaya but not because of that but because, it’s a regular day and there’s classes and all. Isipin niyo ang pagka-haggardo versoza namin! 5am to 7pm :( which is mas OA ang akin coz I got home at 9pm. It’s a trauma. It’s all because of the bulok na serbisyo. Uy, no hard feelings. Ganyan lang talaga tawag ko sa lahat ng OA sa pagka-Filipino time. Anyways, call time was 12nn pero nakaalis po kami ng 2:30 something na. Nangawit pwet ko sa kakaupo at kakaintay, sht.
So finally nakapasok na kami ng ABS CBN! Yeah it was ABSCBN we toured. I remember the first time we went there. Hindi kami pinapasok :( huhu, their rule sucks. Anyways, reyna-reynahan ang peg ko habang nag-ga-grand entrance sa kanila. FINALLY MAKAKAPASOK NA KO! But happiness stopped there. Everything happened next was just so boring, heck. -_- All I know is that the studios in personal are really 10 times smaller than they look on tv. Do you think that’s fascinating, well for me, that’s disappointing. Grabeeee, I’m expecting more not less. But syempre the most exciting part came. Nakakita kami ng artista. The first one was “I’m sorry I dont know her name” but I know her by face. Sa GMA nga siya e, siya yung bff ni Carla Abellana sa Husband’s Lover. Basta nakita namin siya nasa dressing room. Then si Young VJ na kumaway pa samin na kasalukuyan nung nasa MOR. Ang guwapo niya! Tapos in the room next ng MOR was “I dont know his name again.” basta he’s an old actor. His usual role is good and supporting lolo. And then, we also saw Iya Villania!!! She was wearing a black cat costume and she’s just so damn sexy. Nakakainggit. Ang humble pa niya. :(( Everything best is on/in her :(
Anyways let’s move on. Studio tour ended there. Mga 1 hour or wala pa yung kinain na oras. So mga 3:30 yun and the rest of the hours were wasted inside the bus. Grabeeee, kung nagcommute talaga ako, nauna pa ako. Nakakabaaadtrip grabe!!!! Ang lakas maka field trip peg. 6 something na kami binalik sa school. Tapos may bibigay pa raw na pin so we need to stay for some moment na naman to know na hindi naman pala kami bibigyan kasi nabigyan na kami pero ang sabi kanina, iba raw ang ibibigay. Lech ang buhay kung minsan. At sa wakas, pwede na ngang umuwi. Pero what time was that? It was rush hour! YEY! EXCITED NA AKONG MAKIPAGSINGITAN PARA MAKAUNA SA BUS AT MAKIPAGSISIKAN PAPASOK PARA LANG MAKAUWI! GRABE EXCITED TALAGA AKO! ANG SARAP NG FEELING NA TUMAYO SA BUS HABANG KASKASERO ANG DRIVER. ANG SARAP AMUYIN NG MGA KATABI MONG NAG-AALA NEW YEAR NA ANG KILIKILI. MASARAO PO, TRY NIYO MINSAN. Wala po akong pinaglalaban.
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did you ever just cry over looking at someone so attractive? ha, i just did. somebody send me to mental hospital please.
Hay. Rare feelings striking again sucks. Every time I listen to "this song", I don’t really know why but I get sad. Really sad that I even cried. Joke, actually, the first time I heard that song, I thought it was really good to reminisce happy moments because it is an upbeat but when I searched the translation (the song is korean), this is really the “I don’t know why” part that makes me sad and cry. :( I get nostalgic over nothing. I mean I couldnt even relate to the meaning. But it’s still great in a way, ‘cause this is the second time I got absurdly nostalgic and a cry-baby over a song. Yaknow, it makes me feel like some guy whom I admired a lot before wants me now. All thanks to the song. Gosh, I’m so landeeee.
Here’s the lyrics, nope joke, just the translation (this is not the whole song, I cut some parts just so you know)
Peter Pan by EXO
I dust off my worn out diary and suddenly, in the opened pages, you are there. You still remain there just the same. I remember the pictures that I forgot all this time. Then little tremblings splurge in my body. It’s so sad that I can’t go back to those times.
I’ll go looking for you to Neverland by following Tinkerbell sent by our memories. At that place, you and I are smiling at each other. I’m forever your Peter Pan. Your man who has stopped that time. I maybe clumsy but I loved you so much. I will run to you. (again)
I turned the last page, all things were about you. But I have no courage to read it. I will erase the sad words. It’s not going to be the end of our story because we will meet again.
Woo. The last line just killed me. Ugh, too much feels for this song. I guess, the fact that EXO is the one who sang this added up to how nostalgic I am now. Great. Just great.
Gone by Jin. This is a must-watch! I insist! lols. I just can’t keep to myself the feeling of how fascinated I am to this music video. I feel like I’m obligated to share this and let others see. HAHAHA! Just watch it and you’ll (maybe) have the same weird feelings as mine. lols. But seriously, the story is really great and rest is history but not until you watch it :D The song is also great. Actually, everything is great. And my Xiumin is handsome as ever. :D <3 The best part is the ending. I didn’t expect what had happened. So watch out for it. You might not see it coming. :D
This is a Korean song, just so you know.